Chapter 52: First Comes Love, Then Comes Marriage, Then the Motherhlood...Part III

Today, my friend called me to tell me that she was pregnant. I have to admit that I was a little shocked and possibly a little jealous (?). Yes, I am scared a little, but I am also feeling a little left out. I always have. I know that being last serves a purpose--I just don't know what. I guess this constant rotation of my concerns is probably fruitless and maybe a little too frustrating. Maybe it is causing me more stress than necessary. I get asked questions about when I'm going to have babies, etc, etc, and truly this really makes me a little frustrated and maybe even sad. IDK It could be that the love and the baby carriage will come when I decide to move...move from the things that frustrate me and hurt me and confuse me and the things and people that continue to make me feel left out or less than my best. Maybe that's when it will happen. Maybe the both of us will overcome our fear of this big, important step. I do know I will be good and it and I also know that God works in his own time and season. I believe that this is my season to do me and do it even bigger. :)